For me 2009 was a good year. The decade? Not so much. Since I am trying to take my own advice, I must focus on the positive but I can't ignore the negative.
I learned a lot about my self. One of my dads quotes will sum it up nicely. "When you laugh the world laughs with you, when you cry, you cry alone!" So I shall now make good out of it all, and laugh!
I find it amazing that the decade started with us using up our water jugs and canned goods that we had "just in case". Better to be safe than sorry huh? Other choices we made were not so safe. One thing that I know is that it was God that kept us alive through it all.
The most important lesson of the decade though was the house. We bought our dream house. It had everything. Fireplace, Hot tub, wall of windows, a deck and a front porch to die for. I won't even start on the kitchen.
It was beautiful. It was a beautiful nightmare! It was everything that I ever wanted and I hated it. The 5 years that I lived there were among the worst of my life. If you ever saw the movie The Money Pit I can say that our experience was similar. We couldn't work on it because we were too busy paying for it ( And our 2 rental properties)
We were starting to experience stress that our hot tub couldn't soak away. I think you get the picture. This house was starting to cost Paul and I our relationship. Pretty bad huh?

Now here comes the blessing. Through it all I managed to thank God for every trial. Sometimes with some strong questioning. I realized that God did not choose that house for us. We did. We did not even ask him. We wanted beautiful house and we got it! The blessings started the day we moved out. We left with our relationship. Thank God.
The house was over 100 years old and we talked to all of the previous owners or their relatives. It turns out that every couple that owned Big Beautiful House divorced when they lived there. That is not all, They all met financial disaster and alcoholism. Coincidence? You decide. I think not.
As paul and I settled into our recovery zone we had alot of work to do on us. Slowly the stress faded away and we saw how God preserved what was really important. Our relationship with Him and our family.
To the world we may have looked like failures. It was our fault. How easy it would have been to blame our troubles on God. How easy it was to blame each other. It took a while to stop that.
As we recover we still have a hot tub and a fireplace, they are just at the club house. So we walk a little.
Now we are starting to look for a house again. I will put my big ideas in pencil, and ask God where He wants us. I hope that I have learned enough from last decades trials to choose the right house.
In conclusion for my new decade resolution, I resolve to make big decisions way more prayerfully!
That and to lose 20 pounds!
Thanks for reading,
Suzy Levi